5am

Hedge is right. I need to go hang out like a crack horror needs a hit. The last time I was able to go out with Rosa has been months and the last time we actually had something to do or people to see has been even longer. She has plans most of the time but that's not what really bothers me. It mostly bothers me that I only have her, And she has everybody else. I'm alone rather than with many but it makes me feel sad and lame to know that I'm here on my computer and she's out with other people. It's only that I wish I could make myself happy just by going out and making friends, talking to people rather than hating people for being stupid. It feels like whenever I'm talking to somebody at work all I can think about is how incredibly stupid they are and how I'll never have somebody to actually have a true conversation with. That's all lame now that it's said and done....Oh while. I have work at 5am and will be at work all day. I'm being sent out to go to a class entitled " Market analyses" Soze I can use my smarts for growth and not evil!