Thank you...

It was 21 years to the very date. 21 years ago, I was brought into this world. Sum my life up in one post? Not really, however I feel the need to say this.

I am for once, Happy. Maybe that's what has been scaring me so much lately. I remember to the very day in high school when I decided to end everything. I remember sitting in class, looking at life happening around me and thinking how everything and everybody hurt me. Their happiness, their living factor made me want to give up.

I also remember the first day of high school when I was walking through the halls and it was as if something hit me...It just felt different. I was living, and it was me, not somebody else's life that was effecting me, it was ME! I kept waiting for the speaker, the teacher, the friend, the person, who was ready to reach out and touch me, reach out and make since, make my world somehow fall into place...And it never happened. I got bored and decided to do it for myself. If I didn't make that jump, if I never woke up and decided not to die, what would of happened? Where would I be? Not here that's for damn sure!

The life Vibe

I'm waiting for life to start. It's a feeling balling in behind my eyes, between my toes, vibrating in my stomach, looking for a road to diverge within. I live between the lines and from these lines I draw my future. I want to live, walk away and breath for the first time. The feeling of boredom seems to take hold of my body and plant me into the ground I walk. Make me wake up! Make me live, make me enjoy the air in which I draw for life. Make me

Yaaaayyy!

Oh dear god i forgot how good this feels! It's been ages since I last had a computer in my place and now that I finely do I will be back again on a normal basis. Wow...Lots has accrued in the past month or so. I moved out, became single, experienced so much in such a little time, it's hard to know where to start.
Hmmm, lets see, work has been going pretty good. Lets hope I'm not jinxing it there.. And it seems moving out was a great Idea for me because it has really meant so much for me to be able to describe myself as a person because I don't have mommy and daddy standing over my shoulders now. Not that I don't miss them, Because I do and I know they miss me. My mom has taken the move very well, but my dad...It's been rough. I can see why, I am the baby and the last one to leave and I did it at a relatively young age (comparing to my sisters at least). I need to get on my money status now though...I say this as I type on my new computer.... haha.
As for love? That's going to have to wait. Not enough time, not enough people. Collette has very little patience.
And roommate living you ask? I love her, she's been great, it's not hard to live with her and im surprised even though I should of known considering we have been friends for 20 years now.
Speaking of years...I will be 21 next week...Not to sure how I feel about that. It's neither here...nor there I propose, however I am told I will love it.