Time

So I did sleep the whole day away. It was actually nice! I know my cycles though. I understand this is part of my disease. The thought of sleeping until 9-10pm, then getting up, taking a bunch of allergy pills to help me sleep (and not in the suicidal way!) makes me almost excited. I'm feeling overly emotional and depressed and I'm trying to reason it out knowing that things aren't what they seem. My stomach is a mess, all the weight I lost I gained back and 5lbs+ and even though it may be tmi, my hair is growing FREAKISHLY fast! I shaved my legs this morning, and by 2pm they have stubble again! I know there is reason to cation when the thoughts of cutting off all non Internet communication and forgetting talking to people I met on the " Outside" world. I had a moment of excitement thinking that it would actually be kinda nice to not have to shower every day, sit in my pjs, and figure my life out and become better AND THEN, start calling people up again so they can see how much I changed. The bigger question is, is this about Ray, or is this medical? Maybe it's both. I searched the Internet forums for answers, and new questions are the only thing I got.