AGHhhHHHhhHHHhhHHh

This post shall be dedicated to what's wrong with people.

When I got up this morning...I got up 3 hours before I had to be to school. I got ready and left 2 hours before class. I was in the SRJC parking lot 1.5 hours before class started and I waited exactly 1 hour and 20 min to find a spot. As I was pulling into the spot...another car wrapped itself around the corner and scooped in just as I was making the turn into the spot. Now...I'm a pretty nice person. I usually figure that people will be who they are regardless if I let myself get all worked up the situation. So I calmed myself down, then I remembered that I do this all the time. I ALWAYS let people off for the shit they do. When I do something wrong am I as easily let off? No. And part of that is because I would NEVER do something like cut somebody off in traffic, or steal a parking spot, or even cut in line! I feel guilty even when somebody is being rude to me at a store because I'm thinking they are just prolly having a bad day and needed somebody to take it out on. Why am I this person? My best friend...he's the kind of guy that you would hear the words " lets take this outside" on a frequent occasion. He's the person that will say something to the person talking in the movie theatre, or to somebody who is rude to him in the store. It bothers me sometimes, thinking he is really mean, other times...I am jealous. I want to be that person. Cursed by my kindness. It's done me nothing amazing yet. I haven't had any stranger leave me his millions in his will because I was that person who was nice to him in his time of need, I haven't had great luck finding a great guy who sees me for " something amazing and rare" Hell, even my own friends tell me I'm a carpet for other people to walk on. But...where do I draw the line? One day I'm getting worked up over a parking spot, next month I get in a fight and land my ass in jail, then I'm one of those people who think they are entitled to everything. I can't stand those people...All I am asking for is...a little piece of the pie here people!!?? Can I get at least a little? Like a small Lottery win, maybe a great boyfriend, a cool job? A stranger telling me Im pretty...damn..I got nothing.

Boyfriend broke up with me, crappy cell phone company that wont even give me a phone, and a bitch who stole my parking spot. I'm going to take a nap.