Missing Indeed

It was something like 10 minutes before my parents decided to leave, that I decided that I wanted to go to Oregon with them. They where heading out to see my aunt and the rest of the family for the weekend and I had been a little indecisive with my work schedule and had to work :( But Working in retail finale made it's first payment in the Collette book by being so flexible and letting me have the time off. Of course they would for my ailing grandmother... ;) This trip was something I really needed. It was around the 6th hour as we started to make it through the tipping mountain peaks

And around the 7th hour that I started to forget why things always seemed so bad. Looking down at it all, it started with a smile, that turned into a grin that turned into a slight giggle. Looking at the weeks...The moths, the years for all that has seemed to happen...Nothing really mattered as I was crossing state borders. I looked at myself, and thought " Not that I have wasted my life...But I need to get my stuff in order before I do!" I need to become what I want to be. I need to be happy and forget all this "stress" stuff. Why do I take my job so seriously? Why do I let it rule my " outside" life? I need to develop some sort of "Anti-Plan". Yep, that's right! I'm making plans...To not follow plans anymore. Why do I need to map out a life I don't even know yet? I'm only going to be disappointed by what I don't do *Not that I'm not going to try my best and try to do things I've always wanted to do! But rather, I'm going to try out this whole " Where the wind blows" Mad talk. Let's just see where it gets me!