ducky

Watching yourself grow up from the outside in is...strange. I took the weekend away from Santa Rosa, away from my family, away from work, and away from myself mostly. Remind me that he opens my car door, gives me swirly feelings in my stomach when his eyes catch mine and that when he cooks, or is busy arguing with his daughter he is MOST SEXY. Remind me of sitting out on the deck looking through the giant redwood trees listening to the sounds of nature rustle past us and of what finding somebody who thinks a lot like you sounds like. Now, in this moment, I can say that his qualities are good for me, and I am finely comfortable thinking that he may not be the one, but that he is just another life lesson waiting to be understood. ......He is really sexy when he's cooking...

I guess I waited long enough. I got tired of " waiting"...I figured..." What the hell am I waiting for?"...????? so...I let go.

As for this weekend? I will be spending it up at the resort, getting pampered with breakfast in bed, and dinner and a movie.

Now....if only I could get to sleep!