Life Savors

I now completely understand why I am the way I am. I except and am moving in the direction of forgiving all that has been done to me throughout my life. I need to forgive not only the people who have done these things to me, but I need to forgive myself and yet still, own up to what I have done. Today...Has been a turning point for me. I see what I have...What I don't have and I am happy. There are these people I will call " Life killers". These killers have been out and about for a few months now and today they did some top of the list crazy shit. I've had it! The kind of had it that has people moving to different states and coming back years down the road to visit the family they left behind. It's hard for me to think of these things...But I still know that if I don't get out of this life soon, I'll be pulled into living it myself. What about helping them? These killers I hate so dear? There's only so much I can do and there's only so much they are willing to do, it just seems it's something they have to do on their own. Yes I am the type to run away from the problems in my world...But I'm not strong enough to live like this. I'm not strong enough to care anymore. It's sad...But than again...It's the truth!