The yellow brick road

I often wonder if this is all worth it. I sit here in front of a nameless screen and tell it my life and in return I await some ultimate response from it's other faithful followers. It's an odd relationship but that's what I'm all about. In the real world I am just another nameless face in front of millions of others trying to be noticed.
I keep taking that lame deeper look as to why I am not happy and I am slowly realizing...How is anybody ever happy? Things always intervene into my world, crashing colliding, smashing and I am barley able to cope most of the time. So how can I look up, smile and say " Oh happy world, bring me peace?" There are simply times when I can not be expected to be happy. There seems to be a time and a place for my happiness, I just need to find it.
I don't want to go to work today. It's getting harder and harder to be who I want in that store. It constantly feels like people are pulling on me to sway me to be either one person or another. Maybe it's all in my head, but the words of a friend where to not let their world Jade me. I think that's in interesting enough look on that store. It's a battle field full of zombies and people who are happy being miserable. I don't want to end up one of these people who are fighting for the unhappiness of another person. I have been down this path, it's dark and scary, and I fear sometimes, that I'm lost.

So this is what happens when I get overly bored. Changing of templates and random pictures show up all over the place!

This is rosa enjoying one of our many trips to...Looks like bakers square? Maybe denneys? I donno...

My phone sucks! However this is my nephew who broke his leg and is now in this present condition

Bored like the Rainnnnnnnn

I am Bored. Bored enough to try to talk to Co-workers online. Bored enough to try to balance a spoon on my nose and yes, even bored enough to start spending the money I do not have on shoes from the internet. Yes my friends, I am that bored. You know what's sad? The co-worker is snubbing me, the spoon isn't working and the shoes, they don't have them in my size. I can't get anything right.

It's back.

discover what candy you are @ quiz me

Loss

It's odd to loose a co-worker that's close to you. They work next to you for years, but how much do you really know them? Life has it's secretes and sometimes, it's the fact that you don't know the person and what their capable of, that makes you know them even more than you think.

Coffee addict

The unmotivated level is amazing! I never want to do anything. I think I might go get some coffee! That sounds like an awesome idea! The only thing I'm ever motivated to do is to do nothing!

sleep

sleep,
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After being stood up by Rosa for our shopping trip, I turn to sleep as my only comfort.

My life as it is

Tomorrow...My idea of a perfect tomorrow would to wake up and hear that life was cancelled and that we all should return when we come up with better holidays. Yes I'm single and completely alone again for the 20th time...But hey, who's counting right? Besides my mother that is. Seeing as I am now what would qualify as a pro " Single" Gal, I would like to give you first timers some hints as to how to make it through tomorrow:
1. Find that smarmy bitchy ass hole of a person at work, the one's who find time to bake the 500 cookies for the office, and give her an anti valentine

2. Invite all your single friends over and play pin the knife of Cupid.

3. Dress up in your Sunday best and take a walk through the park. Enjoy random shouting at any couple who walks by holding hands. Yell " Shame on you!" or " God hates you" at random volumes.

4. Find the most happiest couple, the ones who giggle and make out regardless of where they are, and slip a " Dear john" letter into his pocket and watch what happens. Remember in the letter, you have to specificity ask for him to never contact you again, to " Not even mention" the letter because your so disgusted in him.

5. Rent all the classics like..." Texas chain saw massacre" " Chucky" ect. Watch with your cats and or dog/stuffed animals.

and lastly remember that falling into the pits of " loneliness" Will only bring more terror than you need on a day like this! So follow my lead and be heartless and a coldhearted bitch!

What I've learned

My great grandma passed away this week. A very sad thing to happen...but I'm oddly not sad about it. She was 94 and had 10 children, many more grand children, and than some great grand children. What was sad was because she outlived many of her own children and didn't get to even out live her first husband. A week or so before passing she went and choose her coffin and made her aragments...wich i find very admarable; she choose a casket with rasing stipes, she said she always had children and even with her kids gone, she was taking care of her grandkids and so she never got to have a race car. My 94 year old grandmother spent her last days telling my great aunt how she thought she had broke her " Butt" because she couldnt stand up straight anymore.

My life is easy, I should be happy about it and realize...it's worth it to be happy and not to waste my time being stupid like i have been.