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The honest truth about weight loss.

My boobs have literally SHRUNK neigh, SHRIVELED to almost 2 sizes smaller! I wish my stomach would shrink as fast however it hasn't. I have lost an approximate 50 lbs! I've lost two pant sizes and two bra sizes, and one shirt size. My success has been in watching what I am eating. No more salt! I've realized how much stuff is loaded with salt! You wouldn't even believe it! Some bottled water has large amounts of salt!!

I've been MOST successful in lowering my calories. I've been almost TOO successful! I find myself forcing myself to eat. I've gone days just eating 200-400 calories, which to me, just isn't healthy! So, I've worked on eating healthy and keeping it at or under 1500 calories. I work out on a semi regular basis, and plan on working harder in the next few months.

I run my hands down to my sides sometimes and every time I am AMAZED, confused, and astonished my the new body I've been living in. At night I run my hands over all my fat, taking inventory of what is where and taking personal stock.

When I was younger, I would do the MOST destructive things to loose weight. I was even more destructive to myself. Cutting, suicide attempts, fasting for days, crash diets, vomiting, and everything was obviously followed by extreme depression.
I now do something that makes me proud and makes living through all that worth it! When I run my hands over my plumpy curves now, I think to myself " Wow! Collette! You're doing it! Your BEAUTIFUL! You wanted this and YOUR DOING IT! I can look at myself in all my awkwardly shaped curves and I LOVE them. When I look at myself I think of how there is one man out there, that looks so AMAZING and beautiful and attractive to me and when we meet, and fall in love, he will feel the same way about me, and that's how I have to look at myself that way too.

I'm healthy AND happy!