FRIendS

I'm all dressed and have nowhere to go. I hate that! I make a semi plan with somebody, we plan on meeting up around 9 and so I get ready, do my hair, my makeup, shoes, blah blah, blah and...nothing. No call. I feel stupid and bored. Plus I am slightly overdressed for law an order...

Anyway, for my birthday my BFF Kelly bought me a digital camera which made want to pee a little! I've never had a really good friend that was a girl....but I think she's the kind of person I HAVE to keep in my life for my own happiness. Such a selfish thing to do, yet, I am not willing to let go!

Robert who knows me very very well got me lots of 35mm b&w film and a book I'm sure to eat up in this next week!

Scott got me a high definition photo printer! Holy shit what is with people getting me these really nice expensive presents?? They all know the way to my heart!

Day 2 of my birthday weekend

Sexy sexy Ladies!

This is travis! He pretty much throws awsome parties and is an awsome friend!

Kelly and I made a blanket for when we where hella drunk and slept in it all night

Day 2 of 22

Tonight

Kelly And I in the....Bathroom...

Whaaaa?

Ummm....We where smashed and it was awsome!

Where's Collette? Oh, she's in the bathoom....taking pictures!

Drunnnnkkkkkk

The Birth of...Me

It was nearly 22 years ago I was born. Amazing for me because...I don't feel that old and yet, I feel way beyond my years.

Kelly made this for me!

I'll try to keep that in mind kelly! And ditto to you hot stuff! And thank you!

3 more days.....

When I grew up I thought the pain of being un-liked would go away. I feel the reason i fall for the people I do because I never really thought people would like me for me. It's a matter of letting somebody need me because...maybe that's the only way I can get somebody to stay with me. I need somebody to depend on me, to have to have me, because without that, they would realize and leave. Just a thought. Nothing more to it then that.

PS: Hayward? hmmmmm...

Oh! Yeah, and only tree more days till..........

Google has the best photoshop!

I dont' want to go to work today but...

Through the whole day, It's all about time. What time is it? How much longer? It's only 0:00? Wow! Yet....in the night...time is no longer counted in digits it's counted by the ablity to keep my eyes open and when I have to be at work the next morning!

3 More days of work! Then I have 4 days OFF!!! Yayyyy for birthday's and yay for bluebarry martinis that I am craving for!

What it means to have the best friends in the world...

Kelly, Robert, Travis

( Don't tell travis he's the Red one because...well, his head is already big enough ok?) ,

Scott, and Collette ( Me)

It was hard keeping my eyes open at this point!

Um....I think she was trying to get me out of the bed because I felt like laying down...what better way then to jump on top and take pictures lol! HOT!

Kelly and Me as Batman And Robbin!

Ummm...I was drunk in....all the pictures! Really drunk!

Things for today...

Things I want to promise myself today:

No more cigarettes (day 1)
No more fast food
Eating Manageable amounts
Exercising
No more Soda

Pig

It only takes seconds to forget where you came from and remember how you came to be who you are, but it only takes seconds for something to trigger a memory so strong you remember the exact place and time it happened.

It was my 7th birthday and at this time in my life I was falling deeper and deeper into my imagination choosing the pretend world over the real one. My parents where struggling with money and we where scraping by as it was, so when my birthday came, I expected nothing special but hoping for the world!

We had a small party, nothing to wild, maybe a cake and my grandma, and even I know at that time, I had no friends to invite anyways. So expecting something practical and boring, my father comes down the hall, with a round shaped present. I remember thinking just for a second.." Wow!" As I pulled back the paper I uncovered this pink fluffy mound...pulling paper and stripping tape, I unveil this...Pig.

Me and Wilbur spent an amazing life together. He became the only person to hear my secrets and dreams. He held my tears, and my laughs. He was always a true friend to me, and never expected anything in return.

Even when I was 7 I understood the importance of what my parents had given me. I could see it in their eyes the weeks leading up to my birthday. A hurtful burden for a 7-year old but I learned how to understand and deal with things like that and because of it I hope I am a better person.

So today, when I got home from work, which was full of the routine, mundane and annoying I find Wilbur, on my bed, with a not from my 8-year old niece. The note reads:

From Katie:

To You

I found Him

I love you

I love her, and I love him and I love that I still have a sliver of my childhood still in me.

God blood?

It's funny that some people let fear keep them from saving a life.

What's more scary? Dying or being scared for a few min and little discomfort?

Donate blood! I have yet to hear one good excuse from healthy viable donors!

Just thought you all needed these as much as I did

Stap

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Sometimes at work...I play with the stapler to make me happier after a mean guest

That of love and war

What is it about violence? I sometimes feel we truly are captivated by it.

When I was young(er) I realized something about the way we love.

The thing we spend much time trying to describe, explain, and understand, is something that will always be one step out of our reach and yet, in all it's glory, we will never stop chasing it.

The golden mystical glow that involves our hearts, our minds and our souls, is to hold us captive till the end of time.

Being of much understanding, love and hate, aren't that much different.

With out one, the other would never exist. Thus our captivity to gore, hate and brutal senseless fighting.

We often fight fierce, and ruthless with our hearts and desires and because of this no man truly misunderstands what it means to fight for love.

It makes one wonder, those who are filled with hate; The ones who fight with senseless words and weakened bodies...those are the ones who truly understand what they are fighting for and sometimes, for a nameless battle and yet, anything but.