Going Home

I'm on my way home. This is the last day of a looong weekend! After New York, Burlington, And Canada, this trip has been productive to say the least. I fell in love with Canada! I want to move there or visit for longer next trip. What else I love now, is back east! This as being opposed to West Coast where my hometown Santa Rosa is. The city, the people, the smells, it's NOTHING like California. 11pm? There's something to do, 9am? Sure there's something open! Where do we eat tonight? Well there's only 50,000 places to go. Haha, not really that dramatic, but you get the idea!

I want

I want a new start.

Burlington

I made it alive!
It's Beautiful! I LOVE it. The city of Burlington is mainly comprised of College students from The College of Vermont. I want to move out here! I miss Santa Rosa...but this is so far an awsome vacation! We went to lunch at this cute little place out in the " Heart" of the city. What keeps tripping me out is that things here are like a small town in California, but this is considered HUGE. Everybody is really nice and friendly, and something else I'm still getting use to...You don't have to lock your doors here! You could leave your house unlocked and come back at 2am and have no worries...That's nice.

New Yooooorrrrrkkkk!

New york baby! I made the flight from Oakland, California to New York's JFK. Im star struck! The empire state building, the hudson, the people, the places, I love it....all up to the point where airport security stole my $50 zippo lighter and then all the rest of our lighters. Understandable...but it still sucks! Our next flight is leaving shortly, then it's off to Vermont!

You Know it!

001. Name: Collette Howell
002. Your Nick Names: Collette, Co-co, Nikki, Nicole, Nik, Nikoli
003. Single or taken: taken
004. Place of Birth: Santa Rosa, California
005. Zodiac Sign: aries
006. Male or Female: female
007. Your last name: Howell
008. School: College
009. Occupation: Photo Lab Supervisor
010. Residence: Santa Rosa, California
011. Screen Name: str141


__Your Appearance___

012. Hair Color: brown
013. Hair Long or Short: Long
014. Eye Color: Hazel
015. How do ur nails look: like nails..
016. Height: 5'11.5
017. Do you have a crush on someone: some guy named robby ;)
018. Do you like yourself: yep
019. Braces?: nope
020. Think your hott?: I'm hot to who it matters
021. Piercing: 3 normal ear holes, than 1 top ear piercing
022. Tattoo: 0
023. Righty or Lefty: Leafty

___Your 'Firsts'___

024. First Kiss: 10ish, and his name was Ryan Wisnesky
025. First TIME: the big v!
026. First best friend(s): Lexi Johnson
027. First Award: " Best Goal keeper"
028. First Sport You Joined: Soccer
029. First pet: Hammy the hampster
030. First vacation: Eureka California
031. First Concert: No Doubt
032. First Love: Love?

___ Favorites___

033. Movie: all of em, I'm addicted!
034. TV Show: roseanne.
035. Color: purple, cream, and black
036. Bands: Red Hot Chili Peppers
037. Song: Breakaway, Kelly Clarkson
038. Food: Mexican!
039. Drink: Dr. pepper
040. Candy: gummi worms
041. Sport To Play: basket ball
043. Brand Of Clothing: old navy
045. School: School of do nothing all day
046. Animal: giraffe
047. Books: ALL of em!
048. Magazines: Etne


___Currently___

049. Eating: nothing
050. Drinking: Mt. Dew Code Red
051. Mood: Sleepy
052. Online?: yea
053. Listening to: Nothing
054. Thinking About: Life
055. Wanting To: Leave on vacation
056. Watching: Shamelessly watching the Disney Channel
057. Wearing: Dark Jeans and A gray jacket

___Your Future___

058. Want Kids?: When I was younger, I would of said no...but now im thinking i prolly will...If it becomes possible
059. Want to Get Married?: Do I believe in marriage? I do like the American idea of a wedding though!
060. Careers in Mind: Photography or Psychology

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___

067. Cute or Sexy: if you are one, your the other
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
069. Hugs or Kisses: a huge hug that ends in a great kiss
070. Short or Tall: doesn't matter
071. Easygoing or serious: a good balance of both
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: a spontaneous romantic
073. Fatty or Skinny: doesn't matter
074. Sensitive or Loud: sensitive
075. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship
076. Sweet or Caring: I would prefer both
077. Trouble Maker or Hesitant one: hesitant one

___Have You Ever___

078. Kissed a Stranger: No
079. Drank Bubbles: lol, yeah
080. Lost glasses/contacts: No
081. Ran Away From Home: no
082. Broken a Bone: None.
083. Got an X-ray: yes
084. Broken someone's Heart: No
085. Broke Up With Someone: yeah
086. Turned Someone Down: yeah
087. Cried When Someone Died: Yea
088. Cried At School: yea


___Do You Believe In___

089. God: a god, yes
090. Miracles: yeah
091. Love At First Sight: no
092. Ghosts: It would be cool!
093. Aliens: yes...But not the weird looking green ones..But ppl or whatever in different galaxies..yeah.
095. Heaven: sort of
096. Hell: sort of
098. Kissing on The First Date: yeah
099. Horoscopes: Do you ever notice how nothing bad ever happens in a horoscope? Maybe we read them because we hope it would all go like that. That and...how typical is the stuff they put in there!

___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Can't Have? If i can't have them then I don't want them.

Poker

Ewwww, x-files is being gross right now. What else to watch at 5am? I really wish I had some sleep to note for this night. Alas, there has been no sleep for me. Damn poker night! I think I'm hooked after one game, LOL

The life as now

I don't feel like myself. Is it that I have been moving into a different part of my life...Or that I'm just different in ways unknown to me? I don't know, all I can think about at this point is relaxing in Vermont in a week from now. I don't necessarily like getting away from everything, but sometimes I just enjoy leaving to get a new perspective.

Lame me

I realized today something about who I am. I turn the Channel when the news gets to sad, I hide the paper when I don't want to read about people without homes, and I turn the page to the article on Google rather than read about the people looting the streets. Isn't it nice to be able to turn other's horrible tragedy on and off at a whim whilst they fully live a night waking horror?

I got in a huge fight with a really good friend at work today. It started innocent enough, something or another about them not checking in on another friend. And somehow, I got really really upset that they had not been worried about this other friend, who was really effected by everything going on. Granted this wasnt the first fight like such, but not with these people. I'm ashamed to not fight, and I am too fight. It's there own life's and they own what they get to do and what they don't get to do. If they aren't caring and compassionate than that's their shit, if I don't want them to get into my life, than I guess I can't get into theirs. You can't MAKE a person care. I wish they would. I wish people would stop thinking about themselves and start to care of one another.

Two weeks ago I called a very very good friend, an " Insensitive ass hole". I'm sorry for doing that...even if I still think It's true. I shouldn't of said that. Wooops! Where did all this anger come from? Like I've been telling everybody for the entire week: VACATION! I'M GOING ON A TRIP!

Blasted

My week was pretty short. I went to a going away party for a friend of mine that is going away to London for four months. It was fun...For most part. I straightened my hair for the occasion. I got SMASHED. LOL, it was fun! Robert and I haven't gotten to spend a whole lot of time together, and that sucks, but at least I have gotten a lot of work in. My lab is slowly coming together. The only thing still lacking is my team! I hope it all comes together before my trip! Which is in a week! Hello Canada! It's going to be a blast...I hope!

Hello Vacation!

I'm going to Vermont in two weeks! Hello relaxing vacation time! Loveeeee it! But...I'll be leaving Robert and my lab! That's gunna suck!

Sleepy

I'm thinking about a nap! Shouldn't but its really very tempting at this point!
I got my research paper topic today, something very lame if you know me at all... " Your pregnant, and decide to raise the child on your own, your life situation is still the same as it is now, what do you do?" Ick, being 2o and pregnant has so been done already in my life. My sisters paved that pathway a loooong time ago. Their where some very interesting topics on that list that I would of been very interested in researching, but I guess this is my Damn lot in life. And yes that's funny because that's the actual title the professor has given this research paper " Your damn lot in life". Referring to the fact that life is like a deck of cards, you can't waste time bitching about what your where dealt, take it and make the best of it! At least I'll learn something there!

Donate blood!

It's making me sick to watch the news anymore. I keep thinking of what it means to loose everything, everybody, what it would feel like to not have a home, or to know where to go. I want to help soo much, but other than donating blood, I'm about a dollar short and a day late. I urge everybody who can to donate at this time, it's easy and fast. If your scared of needles...Than get over it, because there are a lot bigger things, as we have seen, to be afraid of! My boyfriend graduated University of New Orleans, and all I keep thinking about is that he could of been there. He could of been in his apartment, the one where he points out is now covered up to the roof. It scares me even more that there are those who at this point are helpless because of this countries ideas on money and positions. One thing I'm somewhat proud of is that Target, the company I call my own, is donating 1.5 million dollars *(OMG, they are nice and all, but they could do a lot better! Our store brought in that much in two weeks!) And along with money they are donating land and supplies. I'm somewhat proud to work for a company that is assisting in doing something.

Sleeping?

Still awake! Still not tired! Still Want to sleep! Still not sleepy!

I'm snotty

It's 3am and I'm still awake. I've cleaned a little, caught up on my reading, and painted my nails. I even shopped a little in anticipation for my fat paycheck! I worked one 18 hour day and one 11 hour day making for a 52 hour work week and a 92 hour paycheck. These hours are a little wild for me, maybe that's what is making me feel a little off. Is it worth it? I'm back in school and getting pretty settled into my department so far.
I keep thinking to all that I need to get done tomorrow but all that I really want to do is get some dinner, and go to the movies and spent the rest of the night sitting on my ass! Sounds like a plan huh?
I got told by a guest today that I was a " retarded little girl with no idea as to what politeness was" and than she continued to tell me that my supervisor should know about how rude I was and she asked for the supervisor of the photo lab...This is when I smiled " politely" and cocked my head to the side and shook her hand and said " Hi, I'm collette, the supervisor, how can I help you?" She just walked away! Hahahahahaha, that's fucking awful I know, but I couldn't help it! The excutive next to me just laughed and told me I handled it very well. Aww, the High life I live!