Gap Inc.

I had a horrible horrible awful dream last night. I woke up and in what only girls may understand, I cried for 2 hours straight. In other news, I GOT A JOB! I'm working like an hour away at GAP. Score! I make a LITTLE bit better then what I was at Target, but it's still an hour away! I need tires, and a check up on my car, then it needs to be smoged still! But then I also need to pay my insurance and car payment! But what Im looking forward to the most is building my wardrobe! It's going to be NICE!

Bo-dega!

Fixing the mistake

It started early this morning. Nagging at me deep inside my dreams. Planting a seed that grew into the horrible ugly feeling that was today. I want to crawl into a hole and cover myself forever, maybe jump off the top of the tallest coffee shop and burst into million of tiny pieces. I don't know what started this. I made my way home tonight crying as I made every turn, thinking " OMG...What the hell am I doing??????" everything I bring myself back to is " There could be worse! Think about it collette! You could be in a horrible car accident...Then again you can't drive your car for much longer because it's no longer registered...But thankfully you have your health....But you also don't have health insurance..." LAME!!! I wish I could just be happier, JUST BE HAPPY COLLETTE!! Just, get a job, just work, and do it better then ever! Okay?

Why is she making out with that guy she doesn't know? Isn't that her mom's doctor?

This lifetime movie I'm watching...Makes no sense. And I'm messing up my nails to tell you all this random nonsense

Groups of familiarity

Nothing to post as of yet. No job, No life. My time is split between the boyfriend and the bestfriends. I've taken up cooking and cleaning. There's a new me slowly growing out of the old shell of familiarity. I'm taking pictures again and I'm loving them regardless of their quality. I'm happy for moments at a time and for once in such a long time...I can say I'm doing the right thing. I really want to focus on getting a good job. I was looking for something outside of retail and more along the lines of photography or Office work, but things seem to be moving slowly.

I posted my resume on Monster.com which can I say, is awesome! I've gotten two calls regarding my experience and so far they seem promising.

Well...Time to finish my nails, this week is Dark Maroon!

FYI

Kohls sucks, Mervyns sucks, and River Rock Casino Sucks. Fyi bitches!

oh really?

YELLOW You are very perceptive and smart. You are clear and to the point and have a great sense of humor. You are always learning and searching for understanding. Find out your color at Quiz Me!

Could I not have been looking for a job! Could I not somehow end up with a resume site that has ads for Boston red sock poker sets? Ehhk, im over it, now i just feel completely awful, kohls are ass holes!

Im happy...Yeah!

It stings and burns, and as I cry the feeling goes from my face and seems to lump into my chest. It hurts and it's a relief all in one odd turn. I miss him making cute funny faces and making me watch scary movies against my will. It's been not even a full day and I miss all these things. I miss him telling me he misses me already, 5 min out side of his door. I miss him brushing my hair out of my face, then attacking me with a wild un-expected kiss.
I guess this is how it was supposed to be. I feel lonely, and have for a little bit now. I need somebody to be drunk with me, love me unconditionally, insanely, fully, and madly. I want somebody to miss me and still give me my space. I need somebody. I'm already lonely. I keep trying to fill in my time already. Make little tasks and do stuff...OMG! I just realized...I lost my job and my boyfriend. Fuuuuck me!

Being out of work gives you time....

Well on my vacation I've learned....

the first 7 letters of the sign language alphabet

Most of the entire Numa Numa song

There are approximately 9 different kinds of law in orders and csi's

Cheers is always welcoming

By bedroom can double as a fall out shelter

and last but not least...It's really hard to not spend money when you have it and want to save it, but it comes really easy when you don't have any at all!