The Fat From Within

The Past Year:

This past year has been... I don't know how to explain what happened to me this
year.
I moved out
Moved back in
Quit retail
Started a
professional career
For the first time in 7 years I quit working
Decided
to go back to College
Had reckless fun
Let myself fall in Love
Had Sex
and for the really big first...I can't wait to see where the next year
will take me.

Love:

He likes my fat. He's not the first. He is however the only one who feels no shame in loving it. I for the first time feel like He likes it like a man would like the tight fitting sexy pants on a thin women. It gives me an exhilarating feeling. It makes me feel powerful again. He makes me feel like a women again. This is a quality I don't think I can ever substitute again.

Life:

My Mom woke up early to go shopping and buy a new pressure cooker for this meal my Dad had asked for. She cooked for hours. Cut, sliced, diced, and then patiently stirred, checked and waited for it to finish. A great evening with Ray and my parents was sure. However, as we where watching T.V. something first rumbled, then erupted ending in a huge crash/bang/boom. Ray and I look at each other then jump up in unison running to the kitchen. There we find my parents, both still alive yet they look kind of shocked. The pressure cooker is now upside down, on the floor, sitting about 5ft from the stove and the kitchen is now splashed with a red sauce which covers the stove, counters, adjacent cabinets, corner hutch, roof, and table. I couldn't stop laughing. My mom couldn't stop laughing. Mom, Ray and I cleaned the kitchen all together.

Volunteer:

Tomorrow I'm going to donate blood
Sometime next week I will start at the food bank helping preparing food to feed the homeless
Yay for having something to do!