Actual Gain

Is it the past that can no let us go or can we ourselves not let the past go?

I wonder if it where to be reasonable to assume that in letting go that we might then become unable to understand the things that we have painfully come to accept. In the unfavorable instances in which we can not forget what is it we are exactly loosing? Is it the ability to live free with the knowledge of the consequences without knowing the argument? Is it the blooded walls without the war? When is it “okay” to let go a struggle long past without loosing that in which we have actually gained?
Questions still unanswered and reasons still unknown and yet, you ask yourself to release your heart from this pain and let that in which you now know remain. Let these “ Mistakes” be unrepeated and let the lifes you have lived become one again. We are a people of knowledge. We strive from understanding regardless of the favorable views and we become who we are. These are the choices we make and sometimes I fell…burdened to my own heart to hear only the voice that speaks from within. How often do we “filter” the noise around us? The hum of traffic from the evening, or the sound of birds chirping through the beyond? We filter through our days unknowingly and sometimes unwillingly. We leave behind many sounds and maybe unwittingly many voices. To say “ Goodby” maybe we forget that we are letting something go to only accept the louder clearer voice through. To me it’s no longer the voices forgotten or the voices louder then thunder, it’s the voices unheared. To release the people tied to the feelings we have trapped, is the only way we might “ learn” anything. To forget that which I have learned, and to surpass that which I do not need any longer I must accept that there is more to what the eye sees or further, what the eye feels. For when you see bueaty do you not feel it also? Does the feeling of happiness not glow from ones face?
I guess we all need to create the perfect atmosphere to grow frgivness. It starts with a little acceptence and part guilt. Guilt grows into fustration and fustration into what many people belive is acceptence yet wrather is the knowledge of the uncontroable. When we understand that there are things beyond our control we learn that somethings…happen for a reason. Knowing this we also know somethings happen for no reason and with that, how can we still not let the horrible go? We are a glutten for guilt and not being sure that’s a “ Bad” thing I must accept that this is what makes us a people of forever change. We fear the unknown and that often in the case of guilt…is ourselves.