When the world ends...

Don't be jealous, I went to The Dave Matthews Concert last night and yes it was AWESOME! You forget the power of the worlds sexist man belting out touching, memzmarizing words of love.

In other news, Life has taken a turn for...the different. He's different now. I'm mad at him because he took the person, the best friend from me and made him into somebody I don't know. I'm mad because he made me feel so horrible for making him feel like I haven't told the truth and yet, he has lied to me for this entire time. Huge elaborate stories with lots of eye contact make me feel like maybe I wasn't as close to him as I had thought. I feel a lot more alone then I have before. I'm mad at him because he is making me choose between my morals and my loneliness. It will take time it will change. Yet, I'm alone until then and I will find once again there is nobody to rely on but myself. Why would you lie to ME? Anybody but ME? You loved me...At one point I could stare into your eyes and see into you and you could do the same. Money has changed you. I hate it. Not you, but the thing that has changed you into this person who is NOT who I know. I miss...maybe it wasn't you, but I miss the person I know before all this ugly got to you.