Real friends....

Bunch of fucking JERKS! I talked about playing poker alllllll week, Saying how I wanted to play sooooo bad, and I texted everybody today, early, trying to pull something together and nobody called back. Maybe one or two texts saying they aren't going to play...and then what? A call saying they are all over playing already at another guys place, and it wasn't even them who called to tell me there was a game on. Fuck that, if they don't want me there then I wont go, but that's Fucked up.
I'm feeling like such a sucker. I'm the girl who will drive everybody every party so they could drink. I bring you lunch or dinner when I visit, I go out of my way to make you comfortable. I will take you to and from work when you need a ride. Need $20? Suuuuure. Need me to drive you around town so you can take care of what you need? Suuuure. Yeah its my day off...You need somebody to take you shift? I guess so, I had plans...But Okay! Babies sick? I'll work that 12hr shift so you don't have to come in. I hold doors open for old ladies, Give up parking spots to moms with kids and put out my cigarettes when kids pass by. Please, thank you, Yes man, No Sir, Sure, Anytime, Don't worry about it, No thank you.......you know what FUCK YOU! I'm tired of being this fucking push over. Why make myself crazy doing all this for them when you wont even acknowledge me when I am ringing you up, Let the doors slam in my face, forget to call me back, ignore my texts....blah blah blah. Can you just forget about my feelings? Forget about me? Please? Because what your doing to me is even worse and hurts Even more then slamming all the doors in the world on my face. Please and Thank you!