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It's missing...again

I feel like this half complete person. Not even a person. I don't know what's missing. It can only be explained as a feeling. A rotten, sick feeling I have in myself. I don't want to go to school anymore. I sound like such a horrible person! Quite ungrateful is what I see when I look at myself...But...I really don't think school is what I should be doing right now. I just want a month. Just a week! It's like I'm packing all this shit in, work, school, work, school, just so I can get this " Perfect life" we all want. I don't know what my perfect life is. It just seems useless to be preparing for all of this, when my life now...Doesn't mean anything. Well...No, I'm dramatic! I have a great life now...I mean, to think where I was about 2 years ago...Compared to now..It's amazing that I'm still even alive! But I still am missing it. It being what I don't know. Does this make any sense? Yeah/no! Not really Hugh?