I wonder where my story will start.

When I get bored.....

Honestly

I keep loosing my words into my the space between playing golf in my front yard and sleeping in a chair. I find there are contradictions of who we are and what we want. He doesn't posses the eloquence in his words yet when I look into his eyes it pours through. He doesn't have an understanding for the systems of us. He doesn't even give into my demands of friendship. Yet, I'm realizing that possibly, that's what it is about him I cherish and crave.

Hypnotic

I realize, things, events, emotions, set in motion years ago, are erupting into my life today. I'm happy with where I have found myself. I stopped by Gap today. Just to say Hi. See how things where going. I miss it. I miss dancing in the middle of the floor with John. I miss folding entire floors and being able to admire my hardwork in it's emedite visual impression. I miss coming home tired after a day of running around and yet...I dont. I think my problem or my blessing in my eyes, is that I am constantly AMAZED by the world around me. Everything in this world is sparkeling. From the same morning lived every day for 22 years to the new life lost in unrealistic terms. I am constantly stunned by the uglyness of perfection and lost in the hypnotic tunes of faliure. What is it that makes my life so diffrent then yours? Why am I so ready to experience every day like it was my last? When did this happen? I'm going to take a friend to get drink now. And we are going to be suprising another friend at her work where she always begs us to come visit and if i where to die on my way to see her. I would die happy. I would die knowing, I am doing something that makes me smile and makes others happy. This is excatly how I want to life my life.

aMAZEing

For me, it's always been a maze. Something I started when I was younger, just being my way to digest life. We all spend time hiding things and organizing our experiences until we are once again comfortable in our own lives. I See it as the person to find their way back through the maze and puzzles we created...wins. I'm tired and becoming lazy once again and the creative words escape me yet the romantic idea i feel speaks for itself. I'm tired of leading guided tours through my past. I'm looking for a twisted, odd, and sometimes contradicting geek who doesn't get discouraged and likes the puzzle, the maze and the fight as much as I do.

Happy Birthday Travis...who didnt even show up!

 

 

Honestly

I have a normal job. No wild and crazy hours. I have a desk. I sit there. I enjoy the view. I sit there and smile. I talk to people and send e-mails. It's a very odd exsistance.

My real name

1. YOUR REAL NAME: Collette

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first three letter of real name plus izzie): Colizzie

3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color and favorite animal): Maroon Gariffe

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name and current street): Nicole 3rd

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first three letters of your last name, first two letters of your first name, first three letters of mom's maiden name): Howcomon

6. YOUR SUPERHERO'S NAME: (2nd favorite color, favorite drink): Black Blueberry Martini

7. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (Men: father's middle name and mother's middle name; Women: mother's middle name and father's middle name): Moneypenny Lynn

8. YOUR GOTH NAME: (Black, and the name of one of your pets): Black buster brown

9. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (the name of your childhood pet and the street you grew up on): Buttercup 3rd

Thats not micky mouse! THATS TIT DIRT!!!

Ummmm......Hi, I have the best friend in the fucking world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm in your accountz stealin you monies!!!

Hi. I'm Collette and I'm addicted to golf. Sad thing that its a secret.

I'm learning, well..all be it slow, but I'm getting there. My plan is to learn a little and take my Dad out for fathers day. We'll see how it goes. I'm falling slowly in love with the nature of the game though. I find myself thinking..." Maybe if I get all my work done early....I can make it to the driving range and at least get 1 hr in before...." then I stop myself and realize...I just started work and it's 9am and I'm in Novato, pretending I know what I'm doing looking in your bank account :(