It creeps up, sneaks in, finds that hole in your life, whispers sweet everything to you and right when you think you have it....you don't. That's the cycle that life lives for me and when I think I understand, it's the time I am most confused. I'm aching for something to care about. Something, someone, or just something I can pour my soul back into. It used to be my photography that I cared for so much. It was a passion for me. Knowing that I was showing everybody, making them understand what It was like (FINALLY) to see things through my eyes. It was invigorating! I then got a promotion at work, everything I thought I was...I then was. Photography fell second to the world of management. I messed up and made the mistakes that I should of as a 18 year old but not that of a manager and lost that. School came and went and I told myself over and over, I'll never have the money it takes to be what I want to be, and that in the time I can go to school to be what I want, I will have wasted my life and sacrificed all that I really wanted which is...a life worth living. What is it I take for granted now? A family that believes in me. Friends that make me laugh. A young age, something that I forget once in a while. I'm 21, I was only a teenager 3 years ago. I have a lot to learn. I for some reason want a plan, a route pinned out knowing where exactly I need to go. Why do we do that as adults. We want to be able to say, this is where I should be and this is how far I am. We enjoy the idea that we can be better then others just based on our own opinions. Ex. In my opinion, I should be graduating college and have a career earmarked at this time. Anybody older then me, who has not achieved this...is worse then me, and anybody better, is my boss. Come on people, we all are living here by my standards! Live up to em! I am all mighty!
Dec 28, 2006
2007
What the hell am I going to do with my life?????????????????????????????????????? Ever feel a twinge of sheer PANIC?? A moment in which you realize...uhhh, what AM I going to do? Or better yet...when something you wanted to happen...happens, and then you are like..." I didn't think it would of actually happened...." Today's montra...." I can't control the future without controlling my now!" 
Dec 27, 2006
Please!
Remind me not to assume I know what's going to happen in my life...before it happens! Thank you!
Dec 16, 2006
Good To know!
Mythbusters TV show host Adam Savage drops science on how to make a warm can of Coke cold in under 2 minutes!
That would be about 20-25 minutes in a freezer. If you put [the can] in a bucket of ice, that would halve that time. If you put water in that ice, it'd be cold (+- 5c) enough to drink in about 4-6 minutes, if you put salt in that water, you'd reduce the chill time to just over 2 minutes. Agitating the can in the water, rolling it around, reduces the chill time even more.The fastest possible way is to grab a CO2 fire extinguisher and unload that sucker on the can.
Dec 14, 2006
Dec 13, 2006
hedge
I just had a randome thought...H...I think I have been waiting looooong enough! How about we have a myspace meet up? I'm thinkin ive been a good girl alllll year!
Dec 11, 2006
Note to self:
Watch your "Thoughts," they become words
Watch your "Words," they become actions
Watch your "Actions," they become habits
Watch your "Habits," they become character
Watch your "Character", for it becomes your "Destiny"
