Fuzzy life

Life is getting bumpy lately. Things are becoming sure, and then unsure, then safe and then not safe...Life is becoming...Life. It's hard for me to sometimes look at the bright side of things but I try to remind myself that things will get ugly just as easy as things might become pretty again. Bills, boyfriends, food, sickness, it's all rolled into what's running through my mind and for some reason...im not that worried and by that fact...I am worried. I am however looking forward sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much to spending tonight with Robert. Dinner and a movie we both have been wanting to see. I love it! Maybe a nice glass of wine with a great Italian dinner, and then settling in to a sweet movie for two. Im excited!

Robert has been there for me in these past couple weeks. I admire a person who is willing to do what it takes to be a good friend and put forth the effort to see their dreams through. I want tonight to be special for us, we both deserve it.

here's me wondering if I should go get a new outfit for tonight... Part of me kinda wants one and the other half is buried under bills, I need to get more things for work...But I also need to eat this week...Can I just say...In my fridge right now their is nothing!