Rainy

ummmm, I'm rained in. Can't get to work. The freeway is closed. My street is closed. The cops wont let me leave. Lol, Im like a kid finding out school is closed! But then I remember that I cant get out to see Robert either! Fuck!

More Later, I'm sleepy!

Today it's raining, tomorrow it's gunna rain, it's been a week since it wasn't raining and It will be another week until it stops. I feel wet all the time and there's a since of depression thought the culture of Sonoma, Marin and Napa county's. There is a fear I hold, because I am now part of the commuter world, that I am going to hydro plane into a car and flip both of us. On my way home with Robert I nearly slid off the road into a wall twice. What really made my heart jump a beat was how my car began to slide sideways and as I begin to lose more and more control my heart begin to sink just a bit lower into my chest. I hate the feeling that I could hurt not only myself but those around me. I Hate the rain!

This is something that im sure your going to get tired of but it's more of for me then you, okay?

This years New Year's resolutions!
1. Loose weight: I always say it, I always wonder if it will happen, always wish it would and always wonder Why I don't.

2. Spend more time with my family: I will remember later why this is never a good idea, but until then, just saying it makes me feel better! hahahaha

3. BE ONTIME: yes, Robert knows as well does my previous employer, I need to get real on this and I believe this will be my biggest focus this year.

4. Be true: I will work on becoming more honest with my friends and family and even in my relationships.

5. Less Fighting: I will stop becoming argumentative.

Merry Christmas!

“My fellow Americans, let’s be thankful for global warming, because as these winter months approach, it makes the world such a nice, toasty place.

“Let’s be thankful to Brownie for doing such a good job, even if he doesn’t have it anymore.

“Let’s be thankful that we live in a place like America and not in a place like China where the doors are really tricky to open.

“Let’s be thankful that even though my approval numbers are falling, they’re still higher than my grades at Yale.

“Let’s be thankful for Sony PlayStation Portable, which really helps you get through those long Cabinet meetings when they’re going on and on about the economy.

“Let’s be thankful that the year’s almost over and I’ve managed to avoid talking to Cindy Sheehan.

“Let’s be thankful that John Kerry waited until a year after the election to start saying smart things about Iraq.

“Let’s be thankful to Rep. “Mean Jean” Schmidt (R-Ohio) for saying, ‘Cowards cut and run, but the brave serve in the Alabama National Guard.’

“Let’s be thankful that in nine months it will be August and then I can go on summer vacation again.

“Let’s be thankful that we have such courageous men and women working at the CIA, and that we all know their names.

“And finally, my fellow Americans, let’s be thankful that, even though we still haven’t brought Osama bin Laden to justice, we did finally get Robert Blake.”

Perma Smile

As of late....Almost every moment I have is spent with Robert or at Gap.
Two things that are making me smile permanently right now?
1. I have a good job! I get paid good, I am happy and I'm learning a lot!
2. Walking into Roberts well he has classical music full blast watching him conduct as I cooked and drank sweet wine.


And on a final note...I've quit smoking! It's been like a month!