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I'm not a model. I'm not some super hot, "look at that ass" kinda gal. I used to think that I wanted to be. Now I look at myself, and think, "god, if anybody doesn't love me for who I am, rather what I look like, I don't want them for who they are." What started my thinking about all this needless shit? I find myself thinking about these guys. Guys I would normally hear about by other people gossiping " omg, he's just ugly!" If people don't want others to think like that towards them, than how can they treat them like that? How can they do excatly what they are fighting against? I am in no way separate from these girls. That I believe is what I am most afraid of. I need a "change" in my life. A new color in my room, and new hair cut, and a new outlook. No more looking down on my life. I need to wake up from this rut and realize, I'm not defective, just to busy searching the shelves for something better, rather than using what I already have.