Collette, The next generation

Now that I am completely insane I find it fitting to start blogging again. It's been a while, I wont lie. I pretended to be together and with it, but apparently things fell back into place and life once again takes on that ominous stink of...Life.
Moving back in with my parents sometimes feels like a fresh breath, I'm getting on top of my bills, and starting to save money. Yet as I take in this fresh tide of renewal, I get a sudden sensation of suffocation. The room is getting smaller and smaller, and the doors are always locked, it's way to hot and the food is gross. Along with the need to have my own gross food is the need to grow, become me, become what I'm not.
My day dreaming has become a problem. I do nothing more then live in this alternate reality and it is because of this that I have come to realize I'm moving away from the part of me that I hate the most. I need to set a lot of things in stone right now that have been balancing in jello for a while. People's feelings and hearts are at stake right now including my own and I owe it to them and to myself to figure this out. HOWEVER, a huge part of me would just enjoy running away to a cute town full of people who also have run away from their problems and are enjoying sitting in coffee shops, reading books and avoiding talking about their real lives and trying to fulfill their daydreams. Can I run away and live on the Star ship Enterprise? Q, Take me away.