Hurts!

Among other things I hate when the spoon falls into the milk well eating cereal. I also hate being a girl and when I HAVE to go to work. Things are needing balance again and I'm not so sure this time where to get that from...

Had you known what was going to happen...would you re-meet me? July 4th, 2005 ?

What I fell in love with was the allure of your secretes. Your life was something in which I had never discovered before. Each day you break open more and more of those mystery's and in my heart, it's thrilling, exciting, and wonderful. Yet, in my mind, It feels different. You are who you are, and yet, you have lost that luster, that mystery, or un-obtainable silver. I've always known you where out of my league, but I didn't understand why. I know now it's because it takes somebody great to hold on to all that in which you have to give. You have chosen somebody who is not worthy.

I feel really really really lonely all of a sudden. I was supposed to go to a Bar-b-q with the boys and was looking forwards to it but needed to get some rest first because I had stayed up the entire night before and then worked my ass off today at work, So i laid down, and didn't wake back up until way later when the boys had already come knocking on my door and left :( I'm so tired that driving was a BAD idea considering how I handled the ride home today. I was so tired my eyes felt like led and I had to air conditioner on full blast and the same with the radio, what a sight to see!

And Can I make an announcment...it's been 14 hours since I last had a smoke! Eh, wish me luck!

Life sucks

Happy Moving home with your parents day! Life fucking sucks and I'm embrasing my boomarang genaration needs and livin it up! Thanks! Ttyl

BROK-EN!

I'm stressing OUT! It's getting really hairy so to say. When my personal life gets going, my "Money" life spins out of control! It's getting hard just to live anymore and it's making me realize that I'm just very bad with money. I keep hoping somethings going to happen, like a money fairy is going to jump out of nowhere and pass me a million bucks and make all the drama go away. Ps, I've stopped anwsering my phone...and paying for it actualy....That's stupid.